I HAD such an awful dream. I know she’s smarter in real life than that of what I’d seen in the “rotten” nightmare of mine. But thewatch what you twitter, big sister is watchingdefense is buzzing full on wanting to protect her thinking she’s a babe. And knowing, as personal experience allow me to foresee, that it would be the ‘least’ of what she would want for herself to end up being. But as she is too young to even point a finger to what it is she ‘do want’, such fantasy, a common trend in teenage life these days can easily be taken to have a likely chance of blurring any sensibleness out of an unworldy mind. I rather be on the safe side yet i find it so hard doing so, so helpless not being around her. I will call my mom again tomorrow just about that. ‘Mabagsik’ a term people would deem to be an exaggeration to what is typically seen in the moral conduct of (most) youths today. But on what used to be called moral sensiblities now are merely considered trivial and completely irrelevant to, as they say, ‘our generation’ and therefore profusely ridiculed. What stimulates most mind and heart nowadays are but ignoble preferences and injurious predisposition, lacking honor in every deliberate acts. Something I’ve just recently had my eyes opened to and what’d pretty much drawn me back before my wayward ways continued to dig any deeper, enveloping my being only to wipe off ‘moral truths’ of which have protected me for years. Scolding myself repeatedly  with the words: ‘You knew it and yet you couldn’t see!’ (what I was slowly becoming that is) Anyway, cuttin off the drama here’s what I’m gonna do. I’m goin to get around my plan of posting yung article nung nakaaraang sunday (whoa saan galing yun? naubos ang aking ingles kaya? haha humorin myself) So yeah, cause I found it to be quite informative and could be useful to you too (whoever you are nice enough to read what I have on here you must like me that much-now I’ve prolly scared you off just by saying that :S) Knowledge sharing is fun! Tapos nung public talk di ko maiwasan to laugh (mostly at myself) If I had a penny for the times na natamaan ako I’d be ‘oprah-rich’ (not a wholesome movie reference if you know what I’m talking about) Nevertheless, I take ‘em all to heart as lessons, not gonna deny that I was more than a lil embarrassed the whole time  but then again, it had only left my character to maintain a positive outlook and at the same time be optimistic about moving on ahead or makin progress ‘towards a meaningful and brighter future.’(yes another reference but to a tv commercial or something. I really need to be more creative I know) This might cheese you off but I just have this yearnin feeling for that certain  spirit. D’ya know this song that goes:

Back to life, back to reality.
Back from a fantasy
Yeah Tell me now, take the iniative.
I live at the top of the block
No more room for trouble or fuss
Need a change, a positive change look
Look it´s me writing on the wall
Back to life, back to the day we have
Let´s end this foolish game
Hear me out don´t let it waste away
Make up your mind so I know where I stand

.. However do you want me

.. However do you need me