Girl says: “He said he was breakin it off with her, he promised!… (1)why in god’s name does it keep happening to me! I ain’t even a bad person and don’t think i deserve this; (2)i feel so effin mad and i’m sorry..”

Obviously, no single person is ever too young to be caught in sucha mess these days.  Lighten up. Give yourself the credit for upholding such a disposition. If it were someone else, considering a history of past knotty relationships at sucha young age, it would’ve completely left the person in an uncivilized frame of mind. That is, in contrast to some who possess a temper, such that is easily provoked setting off outbursts of inane comments for so lil if no reasonable cause at all. But seeing that you are even standing here apologizing, and resenting the bitterness you feel only demonstrates how well off a character you are that it sure makes the estranged fella fall from any kind of grace next to you and yet that however does not make you any less impervious to the strains of both mental and emotional distress your situation had created. Since i really don’t know the guy personally i am goen to be GENERAL.

YOU ARE but a girl in this big, big world (know that song?) Like everyone else, including myself, u hadn’t lived long enough to even begin to understand its history and how people became what they all are now. There are three most logical answers about human life or this world one needs to be conscious of:

One reason is God has nothin to do with what you’re goen through. He isn’t the one in control of the world at the moment unlike what most religious leaders teach. Satan is the ruler of this world: “The whole world is lying in the power of the wicked one -1 john 5:19″ It does make sense, the world reflects the personality of this invisible spirit creature who is “misleading the entire inhabited earth”(rev. 12:9) Satan is hateful, deceptive and cruel. So the world, under his influence is full of hatred, deceit and cruelty.

Second reason why there is so much sufferin is that mankind has been imperfect and sinful ever since the rebellion in the garden of Eden. Sinful humans tend to struggle for dominance, and this results in wars, oppression and suffering. (Ecc4:1; 8:9)

Third reason for suffering is “time and unforseen occurence.” (Ecc 9:11) In a world w/o God as a protective Ruler, people may suffer because they happen to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. It’s comfortable for us to know though that God does not cause suffering. He is not responsible for the wars ,the crimes, the oppression, or even
the natural disasters that cause people to suffer. (Still, we need to know; ‘why he allows it’, another point that can be discussed if induced by a query )

NOW goin back to your situation, I don’t know how he made you go out with him in the first place. Technically he was in a troubled relationship and apparently has been straying even before he met you. And that basically should’ve been enough to have caused dissuation for wanting to have anything to do with him but yes, you didn’t wanna see that truth, which includes ever knowing what kind of a person the guy really is; i would say, irresponsible and selfish, not only to you, and the girl he IS with but also to himself. His actions showed how well he handles a relationship/his stuff more so himself. He can’t even do his own shizz right, much less anyone else’s even those he cares for, and that includes you honey. The tip off was when he decided to go out with you inspite of the fact that he was still in a relationship which in return put u in a compromising and not to mention humiliating situation despite ur innocence. Inshort, u became a conspirator to his little crime.

What’s more, he thought it was quite so easy for him to convince you seeing that you have no clear view of the whole picture, u only saw what he wanted to show you and that he took advantage of. He wouldn’t have put you through this if he had thought it out carefully at the start, he shouldn’t have even wanted to risk it if he cared enough. He knew wut his situation was back overseas more than anyone else- he shoulda known wut and wutnot to expect. But unfortunately, he does things outta impulse, he himself said he’s been with this person for awhile, it’s only logical to ask ‘how is he gonna be any different with you and the relationship ur gonna have with him in the future?’

Inshort, you’re a vicitim of nothin less but a selfish person or selfish act of nature. His intention could be pure and honest he might really love you, but showin love to someone involves alot more responsibilty, first thing’s first, you start a good relationship with someone by doing so PROPERLY  and obviously that mattered lil to him. Keep your distance while he finally get things done and over with the ‘current’ relationship, that’s all you gotta do, it’s alright to tell him exactly your thoughts and feelings, it helps to be honest atleast it brings a lil relief on your side and that way you did ur part, u became civil towards him and the rest is his to worry about and if he ‘runs away’ (again) you learn his true worth, you’ve not lost anything at all.

NOTE: While there are much oppression, injustice and other bad aspects to human life today, the wise person does not allow these to dampen his joy over things that are going right. Rather, he is determined to “carry off his portion” of present blessings by rejoicing in what he has, even though it may be little.

SWEET DREAMS - Saturday, October 25, 2008

MEET THE OWNER
“Great mind discuss ideas, average mind discuss events, small minds discuss people.”

I have a personality who’s equal part good girl and rash child. No one has authority over me except all’a those who truly care, love and show respect. Sensitive, that`s me to the world issues, and maybe alil of myself and general life. When it comes to new acquaintances, it takes me time before admiration sets in- if the person is worthy of the label. I am not a homo or anything, but i usually am not totally a boy-wanting girl, somehow my hormones don`t control me as much as my mind and wishes do but that ain’t mean I’m frigid either, well rarely anyways =) At my age I am fully sexually mature, but i`d prefer the company of an old person, sensible, to the choice of an idiotic bloke who knows nothing but wanting to get laid. I’m more spiritual rather than religious you can say. I oughta kick this habit. Anyway, love my friends, miss them so. Ow! They all seem to do well without me…*shifty eyes*… I just wanna dance, dance, dance! “…you can do it put yer back into it…don’t stop nigga hit it…gon’ do it, gon’ do it…” LOL

(ps. strangers please take the hint)

“SHUT UP” LIKE IT’S HOT

(why does it turn me on?)
TODAYS music appears to be all about passion, you’ll find it has more statement and very lil insinuation.
Back in the days it was about romance, alotta insinuation very lil statement.
Not saying one is better than the other. But what makes the latter special is its truly TIMELESS.

LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME

LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME

“DRINKING just three cups of coffee a day can make women’s breasts shrink, researchers say. There was a clear link between drinking coffee and smaller breasts, as about half of women possessed a gene shown to link breast size to coffee intake…”

Makes sense. Like tea, coffee has this enzyme that releases fat-burning catechins except that there’s a more potent dose that can be found in the former hence the popularity. (A famous slimming beverage particularly Green. The Wu-Yi tea for instance. I read/heard about it several days ago as endorsed by Oprah W. herself) As for the physical effects on ‘women’, i wouldn’t narrow it down to just breasts..changes manifest elsewhere in the body at the same time ‘naturally’.

Problem is, “when caffeine is combined with carbohydrates - namely the sugar you dump in your coffee - the majority of caffeine’s fat-burning potential is blunted because of the subsequent rise in the fat-storing hormone insulin.” according to BNET Australia.

(…it’s a girl-girl thing lol…)

“Certain-not being too practised in the attraction stakes myself-that he felt some of the attraction I was experiencing. Surely something so strong couldn’t be one-sided..”

I realized as soon as I woke up that what had happened last night was wrong, even unethical. After what i thought were the last words that will ever be exchanged between him and myself there he was back prising a word out of me. In such a way I would deem harmless in intention and yet devastating enough to send a heartbeat into overdrive…

“Oh.. hmm wut kinda presentation are we talking about and how important..can you afford a distraction I’m just in bed reading.

York street recording studio - Control room analyis. 40% course - very important. I would love a gorgeous distraction. Aren’t you comin this ways this weekend. Finished eating..writing now. It’s great texting again.

I’m not so sure..bit hesistant. Got til thursday to make up my mind. (7 hours drive for a diplomatic 3 day function)

Well kate, really hope you do wanna meet me. I was stupid to have taken you for granted..have missed talking to you

Yeah, why you gotta do that anyway i thought we’re cool..casual. I do wanna see you long as its harmless.

I was stupid, and man enough to admit it…it will be harmless. You already know i care for you..and still do. Talking again, makes me realize what you mean to me. If only just to see you, thank you..for a moment..would be real joy. U know what I mean kate? We already know lots about each others company

Talk about nerve-racking stuff but yes i see what you mean…”

Quote for today: “If you can’t be a good example, be a horrible warning.”

Listen To Me -Sleep Together - Garbage

I got you crawling up a mountain
Hanging round my neck
I got you twisted round my finger
Crawling round my legs

The emptiness
The craziness
Satisfy this hungriness

Darling
How would it feel?

If we sleep together
Will you like me better
If we come together
We’ll go down forever
If we sleep together
Will I like you better
If we come together
Prove it now or never

Make me a pretty person
Make me feel like I belong
Make me hard and make me happy
Make me beautiful

It’s  jez one of those days for me - CLICK ME TO WATCH THE VIDEO