Ten Anonymous Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People:
1. Man you are so cocky it makes me want to puke.
2. Im sorry, i miss you. What i did to you is my only regret in life. I want to talk to you again so badly. I miss you I miss you I miss you. You are one in a million.
3. You need to stop being such a control freak
4. You need to stop babbling and LISTEN for a change
5. It’s a phase honey but you’ll get over it i promise. I’m with ya all the way.muah muah.
6. Stop stalling, and go see your doctor.
7.During periods of stress and crisis, it is most important that an open and honest dialogue be maintained with a focus of solving the problem
8. Don’t let your insecurity and jealousness get in the way of your friendship seriously, i mean this in a friendly way. You’ve grown into a beautiful woman and your experiences brought you wisdom that adds the sparkles in your eyes, be your best and be happy.xxx
9. "Here are my feelings, just a few. First, I still like you, after all this time, You told me the same, then left me, what a crime. Time has passed, everyday you’re on my mind, Your heart is with someone else now, what a bind. I can’t do this friendship thing anymore, so off I go. Don’t hate me
for this, this is what pain is making me do. My heart is broken in so many a part, Do I still have a place in your heart?”
10. Lesson in life you still need to learn, never take advantage of people being nice to you, you never know how much they have to put up with juz for your sake cuz they being a real person despite their evil tendencies, at least they admit it and you should start doing the same.
Nine Things About Yourself:
1. I can never be rude to anyone, ever, friends and strangers alike
2. I am in love with a certain black furball/cat named Hash, beautiful
3. Ive only been in one huge serious relationship, and other short and sweet but friendly
4. I want a baby more than anything even though im only in my early 20’s, juz might get a volunteer job that has to do with them for now though!
5. Although i may seem kinda skanky sometimes.. and i do admit i get excited about really nice things.. but i only really been with a couple.. wow this entry makes me sound unlike me..this is misleading.. no lie!
6. I like cuddles & biting
7. I’m curious of how some people can show so lil etiquette supposing they been educated and all that
8. Getting something soon, i hope and might shock the ‘globural capsule of the vertebrate eye’ outta their sockets.
9. Everything’s been under the techinical level of a status with me.
Eight Ways To Win My Heart:
1. Be outgoing
2. Know when to be sensitive
3. Love your mom and show it
4. Dont be a pussy
5. Show me that u can stand up for me/your friends when anyone needs it
6. Listen
7. Be HILARIOUS
8. Love to cuddle
Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A lot:
1. Menu for today’s lunch and dinner since i now cook yay!
2. Time
3. What other useful things i could do
4. money worries
5. growing up and my future and how ill be 30 before i know it
6. someone i miss who i wont say
7. bad weather making me emo
Six Things You Wish You Never Did:
1. Go places i shouldn’t be
2. Do things i shouldn’t have
…those are my only regrets.=)
Five Turn Offs:
1. B.O.
2. Unreasonably poor etiquette
3. Bragging about dumb sthings (cockiness!)
4. Trying to be a punk (you need a nice balance between badass and nice boy!)
5. Torpe:(english) idiot males or wimps =)
Four Turn Ons:
1. Tall - like a tree that shades me lol
2. outgoing but not slutty
3. Thoughtful
4. gotta be comfortable w/ urself
Three Smileys That Describe Your Life:
1. 
2. >=(
3. 
Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. Get a real life
2. See my family, healthy and in love
One Confession:
1. I only have but one thorn inside of me, and it’s coming off…
"It’s such an awesome day!
T’was cool I got to see him, yay!
I’m not sure wut it is, I feel so gay.
With him I got to spend most of the day.
We were like mascots in a play…
Everything seemed OK.
I loved the way he calls me, khaye…
as we teased each other and laughed all day!"
mwHahaha!….
PReEttyY!
"Since the moment I spotted you
Like walking round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach’s filled with the butterflies…and it’s alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I’m never going to come down
If I said I didn’t like it then you know I’d lied
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I’m singn’ ‘Why don’t you and I get together and take on the world
And be together forever
Heads we will and tails we’ll try again
So I’ll say why don’t you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
And straight on to heaven
Cause without you they’re never going to let me in’
When’s this fever going to break?
I think I’ve handled more than any man can take
I’m like a love-sick puppy chasing you around…and it’s alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I’m never going to come down
If said I didn’t like it then you know I’d lied
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right"…*Santana- Why don’t you and I*
… and this song by Fuel called ‘Hemorrhage (In my hands)’.
I know, it doesn’t make any sense but whenever I’m hearin it, I’m
reminded of how special this person is and how fortunate I am to have
*** around. "Brown Eyeball", you might be reading this and I’ll bet my
life on it-yer busting yer gut laughing ryt now. Well, I have to admit
I dig ***. LET’S CELEBRATE! Wut in the… I got sticky gum on my
knee..oh, great! Like I have ‘em on botha my knees now, the thing
must’ve been from underneath the COmp’s table. Dumbfags.
Memories are just where you laid them
Dragging waters till the depths give up their dead
What did you expect to find?
Was it something you left behind?
Don’t you remember everything I said when I said
Don’t fall away, and leave me to myself
Don’t fall away, and leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands again
Leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands
Love lies bleeding…
Oh hold me now, I feel contagious..
Am I the only place that you’ve left to go?
She cries that life is like some movie black and white..
Dead actors, vacant lies, Over, and over, and over again she cries..
Don’t fall away, and leave me to myself
Don’t fall away, and leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands again,
Leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands
Love lies bleeding…
And I wanted
You turned away
You don’t remember
But I do..
You never even tried…
Don’t fall away, and leave me to myself
Don’t fall away, and leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands again
Leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands again
Leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands again..
Ohh..
Ohh..
[Doesn't have anythin to do with the Title up there but the songs speaks for the HURT bit.]
<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3<3~<3
joie de vivre
What is joie de vivre?
They say,
“It can be a joy of conversation, joy of eating, joy of anything one might do.
One may speak of joie de finesse(refinement, grace, elegance), joie de réussite (success), the joy of
summer, the joy of an embrace, etc.
Alain: Il y a de merveilleuses joies dans l’amitié-joy of friendship.
And joie de vivre may be seen as a joy of everything, a comprehensive
joy, a philosophy of life, but it is a joy first of all. “Joy” has
been defined by Webster’s International Dictionary as “the emotion
excited by the acquisition or expectation of good.” Thus, “joy”
is an emotion and involves the ethical term “good.” To learn about joie
de vivre we must then have a sound theory of emotion and ethics.
Ethical terms such as “good-bad,
right-wrong, should-shouldn’t,” may be characterized as being vague,
open-context or general terms. What does the word “good” mean on this
view? It means precisely nothing. It is meaningless. It is like an empty glass.
To be useful, we must pour something into it. And what things shall we pour
into “good?” On a naturalistic theory, we would fill the glass with
our actual needs and desires, causing ethics to reduce into inquiry which is
used in bringin about our desires deliberately and adequately in terms of a reasonably full knowledge of our environment.
“Basic Theory According to Editor”
1. Emotions have a cognitive component. They are
assessments (self-talk, or language use) which lead to bodily sensations.
Revenge, for example, must involve such cognitive assessments as “I wish
to get back at you.” Emotions are not just bodily feelings, not just
sensations. So, to know what joie de vivre,
we must know which assessments are involved in it.
2. We
cause our own bodily feelings by our assessments. Emotions are not directly caused by others, or by the
environment. Joy is something only we can create and keep alive in ourselves,
not something that just happens to us. Only we ourselves can cause our joie de
vivre.
3. Negative emotions are due to faulty
assessments and the bodily feelings these assessments induce. It has been shown
that anger, for example, is largely due to faulty expectations, or
faulty factual knowledge. We come by
error to believe that some things are “bad in themselves.” Nothing is
“bad in itself.” Marcus Aurelius gives us insight into this when he
tells us that we can only do what is within our power, and that we have to
accept what is, as it really is. This is simple, but brilliant advice. For
our sanity and physical well-being, we have to accept death and tragedies, just
as we welcome the desirable things that happen to us. This means, for example,
that anger, boredom, depression, feelings of inferiority, may be unlearned,
prevented, and are not justifiable.
4. Emotions usually involve open-context,
ethical terms such as “good” or “bad,” as previously
mentioned. Thus, to be clear about emotions, one must also be clear about
the uses and misuses of ethical terms. For example, if we realize that one
cannot be “bad in itself,” or “bad” in the abstract, we
would not for this reason assess-feel inferior. We can, after all, only do what
is within our power. It makes no sense to assess-feel bad about things we
cannot change. And it makes no sense to assess-feel bad about things we can
change. It rarely makes sense to “feel bad” at all. The research in
rational-emotive therapy and the cognitive theory of emotion have shown us
clearly how to effectively prevent and eliminate negative emotions. This
command over negative emotions is needed before we can genuinely experience
love or joie de vivre. For the dysfunctional, such events do not readily
occur.
*Happiness is also
correlated with the ability to rationalize or explain social and economic
inequalities.
CRUEL, an eerie resemblance of characters and some initials to real life. That’s all i’m gonna say…
The Completion Myth Of Romantic Relationships - Lessons I’ve Learned
1)Let’s examine one of the most popular aaahh-inducing lines in a movie: "You complete me" from "Jerry McGuire"
Editor: U see so many twenty-somethings craving a relationship in the hopes that it will complete them in some way — make them happier, relieve some kind of stress, keep them on par with their peers, or please their parents. The most dangerous thing you can expect or do in a relationship is to hold onto the expectation that the person you are with is there to do something for you. That is not the point of a relationship.
“A healthy relationship is defined by two independent people who share a love for each other but are not dependent on each other.”
2)Whether you are currently swaying to your own beat, sashaying between different partners, or waltzing with one person in particular, it’s important that you take the time to dance alone, to understand your personal rhythm, before matching yours to another. Take some single time, especially in your 20s, to learn who you are sans a plus one. You have the rest of your life to share a tube of toothpaste with someone else so enjoy these years of being on your own — savor it. Living your own life, making your own decisions about your future, and dealing with the "real world" is a plate-full. Serious relationships can make it more difficult for you to figure yourself out, and not knowing who you are can do damage to future relationships. You will probably change more in your 20s than during any other decade in your life. The person you are at 30 may have a vastly different opinion about what you value in a partner than who you are at 23.
"So date yourself. Fall in love with yourself."
3)And if you are in a relationship, just be sure that you are conscious of continuing to develop your own sense of identity. Sure, a relationship takes compromise, but maintaining your own sense of individuality and independence is important. Do things alone, enjoy time with friends or on hobbies without your mate, and continue to invest in your own personal growth.
“The best relationship is when two people that complete themselves come together to enjoy each other.”
Editor: Confused about whether or not you complete yourself? Here are five signs of personal completion:
1. Whether you are single or in a relationship, you cherish your alone time. You don’t feel lonely. You actually enjoy doing things on your own. A movie or dinner alone does not scare you.
2. You can be around other couples by yourself without feeling jealous or sad about not having a significant other (or not having your significant other with you).
3. The idea of being in a relationship sounds wonderful, but it is not something you obsess about everyday. If you are in a relationship, it does not consume your daily thoughts or activities.
4. You have a clear sense of who you are and what your values are — another person would not be able to sway you to sacrifice or change the things that matter to you the most.
5. You realize you are responsible for your own happiness and do not look to anyone else to make you feel a certain way. You have no expectations of what a relationship is supposed to do for you.
I realize these signs are not exactly the making of a greeting card or Blockbuster Romantic Comedy; but I guarantee you, if you learn how to complete yourself in your 20s, you will eventually attract your "soul-match." Remember, we attract a reflection of ourselves, so consider working on completing yourself as an investment into upping the quality of your lifetime companion.
Titled: ‘Everything…’ Dated: Tue, 31 May 2005
There’s nothing more to hide, and I could not deny these things to you anymore
since you already know everything. I feel so shocked at the very point;
the time has stopped and felt like I was shredded into a million
pieces. My hands became so cold; my knees trembled, as I almost fell to
the ground. I don’t know what to say or what to do.
Last night, I dreamed of something very remarkable. Then I
said to myself, “If this is only a dream, then I don’t want to wake up”.
But things didn’t go that way. My eyes suddenly opened and i realized
that everything was only an illusion and wasn’t really true. I don’t
want to get up from these dreams, but a voice I heard from not
so far away woke me up from this slumber. A very familiar and
unforgettable voice. Words from a close friend reminded me to stop
dreaming and expecting something that is not really for me, there
are no chances for me to achieve it even if I dream a million times or
more, and even I might say that there is a right time for this. Yes,
she’s right, in which I also felt at the very start. She just cleared
out the way for me and confirmed that what bothers inside me is true.
At first, it is really hard for me to accept, since I couldn’t really
forget how that dream became so very meaningful to me. I tried to erase
all the traces, and everything that may remind me about this dream, but
it didn’t help. It just made me suffer more. But as the time goes,
I’m starting to learn and accept the reality little by little and not
to expect and that everything will came true. Right now, the
memories are still clear inside my thoughts, and I
could still feel how it deeply marked my heart with an incomparable
joy. I’m so very thankful that I dreamed something like this, and
fulfilling it may not be a bad idea after all. I will be more thankful
if I’m going to have this dream everyday, and very much thankful if I’m
going to have this dream forever. Even if it is only a dream, I could
manage to live with these beautiful memories that once gave me a very
tremendous feeling that I never felt before. I’d rather choose to die
alone with these beautiful memories and hold them tightly deep inside
my thoughts, instead of starting a new one again. If you could still
remember what those things that I wrote in the past are, about the virus,
yes it was you. I didn’t completely erase them and put everything into
waste. I have them all backed-up. Of course not! I’m not stupid to
trash those beautiful memories! You truly inspired me a lot and put too
much color into my life! A million thanks I want to say to you,
money could never buy that kind of happiness. Uhm.. This
is our secret; YOU ARE MY BIGGEST CRUSH!!! Here’s a deep line from
my head… “I could never ever forget the first day we met, when
beautiful red roses fell down to the sky, and the way you decorated my
world with the sweetest smile from your face… a never-ending story that
is truly worth to keep in my memories forever.” (eeew?) Hey! Mahal ang
pagbabasa sa mga isinulat ko! Pero sayo, sige libre nalang… hehe! Sige,
I hope you can still remember this one.
The first entry in my journal… January 28, 2005
“Have you ever been in a feeling that you are being caught in a situation on
which a speeding car is going towards you while standing in the middle
of the road? That’s so freaky isn’t it? And you cannot move for the mere
fact that paranoia have flowed all over your veins cramping your emotions
and sane thoughts. Standing in a middle of nowhere full of darkness
while pretending that everything will end in an instant. Well, it’s the
same feeling I had when I met her. She was like a speeding car that’s
heading directly straight right through me! She went through all over
my body and corrupted my sanity. I always feel that she’s running
through my bloodstream – freezing my rational thoughts into something
unnatural. Well, I’m always trying to fight these twisted emotions
of mine but she’s getting stronger more than a virus.”
And the last entry I wrote… March 1, 2005
“For once in our lives, special people came and brought a smile inside our
hearts leaving a great memory that will last not for a while, but for a
lifetime. We learned to accept and consider them as a part of our own
based on who and what they are but not for what they have or what they
possess. Though, they are the most precious treasures in this world
worth to keep. So, while there is an opportunity for us to express and
show how much they are so very important and how much they are very
special to us, we must always choose to grab this chance and give our
greatest shot to do our very best for this matter. The world keeps on
turning and revolving but we cannot say that this life going on now
will also flow to its rotation. Everything will end so as to our
friends will also go. That’s why as long as we have them, as long as we
laugh together with them, as long as we spend precious moments with
them, as long as we could see them smiling, and as long as we could
hear them breathing, we must inculcate deep inside our thoughts that
everything is only just momentary. We might have them right now but we
cannot say if they are still here tomorrow.
In order to raise a plant and make it grow, nurture and proper care is
required. This procedure needs enough water, fertile soil, and
rich sunlight. If only one of these elements goes and breaks the
chain, we could easily say that it will not grow or it will easily die.
This methodology is so much the same when it comes to our friends. This
is how we should treat our friends in such a way that we should give
them all of the proper care and attention for them to stay. Or else, we
might keep on blaming ourselves then on asking “why” and saying “if
only”. That is the most painful part of all – putting something back
that is already lost.”
Let me tell you this one direct to the point about that conversation with
him. A strong feeling suddenly just came inside me… a very strong
emotion forced me to say something really unethical - a feeling that
someone feels for someone if someone is trying to get into the scene. I
know and I admit that I should not react that way, and I don’t have the
right to feel that way. I’m sorry for such a mistake. But then, I’m a
bit annoyed to him for he could not manage to hold on a deal as a man.
We promised not to leak out these things to anyone else for some
certain reasons, but he didn’t follow. But honestly, at the very next
day, I realized a mistake, that’s why I approached him and tried to be
nice to him so we could be friends and make him feel that I’m really
sorry about the things that I’ve said and I have no bad intentions like
pushing him away. (On second thought) No! I already change my mind.
I don’t want him anymore to be a friend. If I could not trust him for something little,
what more for something bigger. But you know what? I’m still thankful
that it happened. It reminded me once again, if I still feel these
things, like being jealous, then I’m still expecting for something.
That’s why, from another mistake, I learned another lesson again.
Things are quite enough and truly enough. I will never fall again for
something alike that will cause too much mess around. And one more
thing, he’s not a stranger since he’s a Brother in Faith. I didn’t
treat him like others. We talked and delivered things like we’re
already friends from the very start and never acted like there are
flaming walls between us that could sift our ways to become close. I
would never let a small spark turn into a flame. I may be annoyed, but
things should be covered up with Christian love – and that’s the way in
which things should be. He may did something against on my side for
breaking up on our deal, but then, I want him to know that I’m not mad
and I’m still cool with him, but it feels like that he’s not going to
show up anymore… I don’t know. If ever he’s not going to show up very
soon, if you know a way to reach him, please tell to him that I want to
clear up these things as much as possible. Tension is building up and
if he didn’t manage to bring up himself into a man-to-man talk, then
I’m sorry. Please don’t blame me if I’m going to think that he’s just
up for something of letting you know everything in an unexpected time.
He’s just up for something like blackmailing and making me stay
away from you. BUZZZZZ!!! It’s not a way of defeating me!
Not a man like him could put me down. I don’t know what are his intentions,
and right now, that’s the only thing I had in my mind. Things like these
are quite typical and very common these days, that’s why there is nothing
really new about this kind of situation. I’m giving him a time until this week only to
justify his side. If he’s man enough, then he could manage to settle
these things in a shortest possible time. That’s all.
Kate, you have everything in your hand right now and it’s up to you what to
do with it. If there is something in your mind like the “best way to
do”, then, I could not blame you… I’m ready to accept all of the
consequences for letting the world know about what I truly feel. You
already know everything and please I hope that nothing will change.
Actually, this is also what I’m anxious with… that someday you will
discover about these things and avoid me forever. But I’m not holding
on with that matter very much since I know that you are such a very
nice person and you could not do that to me. Maybe then, it is also now
clear to you, and it is now understandable why I love to do such
nice things, and trying not to “miss a thing” and even a single moment
of being with you, but I also want you to know that… I do not expect
anything in return. Like what I said, maybe it is not a very bad idea
to fulfill my dreams and make it real at some other point. Just to see
you happy make me feel so complete, there’s nothing more I could ask.
Whatever these things that I’m doing right now, well, I’m just really
thankful that I met someone like you and become my friend. I’m ready to
do everything just to make you stay. Losing someone like you is like
losing my entire life.
Let me express how much I am very much thankful to be your friend. That’s
why as a token of my warm gratitude and appreciation, let me give you a
gift. “For a very special friend who have the most beautiful eyes”.
If ever I missed something to say and still needs a clarification, please let me know.
